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Sat, 02 Dec 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-13 | 12:26:18) This is to follow up on my previous post. Just for those who are interested. It is only for Amember. Unauthorized copying prohibited. As per my request, my mother delivered me my favorite dish from her recipe; three-colored rice. I enjoyed my mother’s cook.I was glad that I could also eat some strawberries too. But later, I threw all up. Maybe because I didn’t eat on the day before?In any case, it’s very disappointing. Then again, my stomach got upset and stopped to accept any foods. At night, my husband came to see me, and for some reasons, I felt a bit of energy. After he left, I turned on my switch to return to the fight again. I had a green juice and a banana. I just so focused to eat them all. I was a monkey. It was almost like a hog-wild monkey, not like a c続きをみる

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Only for those who are interested to read

Fri, 01 Dec 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-13 | 12:09:24) This blog may make you upset, so please read only if you are interested. It is only for Amember. Unauthorized copying prohibited. I got a very depressing news yesterday. Some cases of skin metastasis were found with the breast.In addition, there’s a tumor on the abdomen, which might have a risk to lead the same. I started another radiotherapy on bones the day before yesterday, which caused severe pains. Because of that, I was very stressed out already. Then, now another shocking reality has hit me. “How long have I got left?” I asked my doctor for the first time since I was diagnosed with cancer. The doctor said:“If the systemic therapy works well, you’ll be alive.Do not worry 続きをみる

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Can’t wait to see her

Thu, 30 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-13 | 11:45:41) Hope you are having a good morning. I am listening to music today. It’s a music that is recognized as an effective form of therapy. It’s said that its sound frequencies and rhythm treat physical ailments well.Wake up 🎶 my cells続きをみる

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Everlasting Love

Wed, 29 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-11 | 23:25:14) I slipped off to sleep and found this little note on my pillow when I woke up. It doesn’t mean much, but I am touched. We can now easily communicate on mobile for any small matters. I am coming at xx!Can you bring me xx?Sure!Sorry, I am running late. But some time ago, it was not as smooth as nowadays. Is she coming?Is he still at work?They may not be able to make it today?Are they in troubles? I guess people staying at a hospital, back then, might feel anxiety while waitin続きをみる

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Thank you very much.

Mon, 27 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-10 | 23:16:43) I slept on and off, and so I didn’t have a chance to write a blog until now. Thank you all for watching the documentary program last night. I have no regret.This is where I am now. And I am glad that I was able to keep a record of how I was. I know it is a bit too early. But I tried to picture of ourselves in “2017”. I was in the hospital last spring. So I would like to go see cherry blossoms with my family together. Tree-planting might be a bit too much to続きをみる

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To eat

Sun, 26 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-09 | 18:19:50) My favorite Kashimaya’s Sake Chazuke is back! Today, my mother kindly brought me some organic filed mustard, sprouts, and a peanut tofu. I am having a hard time “eating”, for the first time in my life. No matter what happened, I was always confident in “eating”,so I now learned that people sometimes need to make an effort to eat… A friend of mine c続きをみる

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Tonight 10pm

Sat, 25 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-09 | 12:44:56) The documentary, “I am Ichikawa Ebizo” airs on Nihon 続きをみる

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Thank you so much.

Fri, 24 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-08 | 18:08:39) Your messages helped to soften my feelings. Now I feel okay and am calmly lying down. I am always inspired by your words as I see so many dramas 続きをみる

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Self-Talk at Sleepless Night

Thu, 23 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-07 | 23:26:07) The gift from my boy was an orange roll cake.Let’s keep it by my pillow. Because my families worried about me, they gave me some suggestions regarding my appetite and pain. But I said:“I am the one who knows about my body well. Nobody but me.” They just kindly responded:“Yeah, of course!” Now, I am here alone in my room. I feel kind of guilty and empty about saying such things. It must be sad for them to hear…I am sorry. “It’s hard, it’s painful, I’m tired”Those words often come out of my mouth to my family. Patients may be allowed to be negative sometimes. But their family mi続きをみる

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Inside of The Candy

Wed, 22 Nov 2017 19:21:00 +0900

(originally posted on 2017-01-06 | 21:08:50) Just right now!I was just curious about the inside of the candy… I got tempted to open it…And I did so. It’s a tissue paper. But, my curiosity encouraged me to check it further. 続きをみる

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