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見つめていたいどんな瞬間も

Thu, 25 Aug 2011 03:14:53 +0900

アメンバー限定公開記事です。

いつもの笑顔を見せてよ

Tue, 23 Aug 2011 16:14:42 +0900

恋愛ドラマって本当に冷静になって見ちゃいけないんだなって思うんですよね。
片思いっていつも身勝手で、恋にワケなんてなくって、
理由を追求してしまえば全部冷めてしまって...ねぇ。

まあ、あれですよ。
美男デスネ。

あー胸キュンだなー。はいはい。
とは思うけど、いまいち踏み込めないのは、
多分個人的にキャストに魅力をそこまで感じられない上に、
色々と略されてつじつまが合わなくなったと思うんですよね。
でも、長々とやられたらやられたで、やり方次第でつまらなくなるのもあれだし、
日本のドラマは韓流のと違ってずばずばスピードが魅力だと思うのでそこはしょうがない。
それでも、みおちゃんは大好きだけど、なんで全員一気に好きなるのかが不明過ぎて。
みおちゃんはレンさんが好きだから、その二人はほっといて、シュウさんとユウキきゅんは本当に勝手に好きになって、勝手にアプローチして、勝手に失恋して...ェ。な感じだなーって冷静になればそう思えて来て。何も考えずに見てたらそこそこ胸キュンはできてたけど←
バンドマンが恋に落ちる時って本当に一瞬で深くて意味がわかんないもんですね＜高杉のなっつぁん

まあ、自分冷めてるからしょうがないか。
ひと恋の時もなんだかこんな感じだった気が。

要するにあれですよ、れんさんxななちゃんを推してるんです、私わ！（机ﾊﾞｧｱｱﾝ
だって、そっちの方がどう考えても可能性ありそうじゃない？違うかっ
シュウさんはね...凄く優しいし、それにもときめいてるけど、好きだからときめくワケだし、好きでも無かったら本当に一方通行のありがた迷惑だよね...あれは。
ユウキくんは更にふっ（鼻でﾜﾛﾀ
完全に論外でキングカワイソス。

気長に最後まで見守りますが。
みおちゃんとなな様が気になるので(`･ω･´)
そんでもって、ストーリはいまいちですが、所々ぶっこでくる胸キュンシチュエーションはそこそこ萌えるので、この手のドラマとしては成功の方なんじゃないでしょうか？

あ、すごい上から目線ですみません(´∀｀人)ｴﾍ☆

I was enchanted to meet you

Mon, 22 Aug 2011 01:22:45 +0900

書いてはまた消して消してはまた書いて
最近は頭の整理がなんだかいまいちです。
元々悪い上にツイッター廃人になってからは更に悪化。
って、それも今に分かった事でも無く。
そんなツイッターも近頃なんだか自由が効かなくなってたまに息苦しい。
だから、その為のブログ（笑）

最後にブログを更新したのが６月。
あかにしくんの誕生日月の７月を飛ばしての今日はもう８月２２日。
夏ももうすぐ終わりますし、私の夏休みも残す所あと１ヶ月。
あと１ヶ月しかないのか、あと１ヶ月もあるのか。
過ごし方次第ですね。
今の所休みは十分過ぎるぐらい満喫してます。
何もやってませんが、満喫してます。
ほぼ学校なんてあったっけ？ってぐらいの感覚の長い休み。贅沢過ぎます。はい。
とても高い航空券をお父さんに払って貰って一時的にシンガポールにも帰れまして、
旅行ではないですが、旅は出来てよかったです。
でも、欲を言えばアメリカ行きたいです。←
あかにしくん早くツアー発表してください。(・∀・)σ)･ﾟρﾟ;)
まあまあ、気長に待ちます。
お金無いのでもうちょっと待っててください。（どっちだよ
発表自体はお早めにで、ライブはもうちょっと待ってください...かな？
でも残す１ヶ月の夏休みもまだ楽しみがいっぱい過ぎて、
むしろ、ここから！ここからが夏本番なぐらい遊べそうでとても楽しみです。
お金が無さ過ぎる現実は無視しませう。

えっと、なんだかんだで何が言いたかったんですかね。

まずは、もちろんあかにちきゅん２８ちゃいおめでとう＆５ヶ月ぶり日本帰国おかえり♡
色々と日本を満喫してる見たいで何よりです＾＾＾＾
でも、本当に５ヶ月にも渡る長い撮影本当に本当におつかれさまです。
早く会いたいのはやまやまですが、短い夏休みめいっぱい楽しんでくださいませ。
あなたが～笑って～生きてる～ただそれだ～けで～♪って事が私の日々の幸せです。アーメン。

こうしてあかにしくんの誕生日祝うのも今年でまさか６回目。
いやぁあぁー。色々ありましたね（笑）
お祝いの内容も、祝い方も、環境も、一緒に居るメンバーも。
でもただ一つ、あかにしくんを思う気持ちだけは変わりません。
むしろ毎年毎年好きが増して辛いです（笑）
本当不思議なぐらいに変わらないのはきっと本人が変わらないからなのかなって思ってしまいます。
何はともあれしばらくは多分ゾッコンなままです♡じんじんだいちゅき♡

あとはあとは、キスマイデビューおめでとうございます。
来週また会いに行きますお⊂(・ω・)⊃
みっくん(ﾟ∀ﾟ)o彡°みっくん(ﾟ∀ﾟ)o彡°
デビュー特有の輝きってなんだかとても眩くて素敵ですね。
メンバーも、ヲタも、全てが希望に満ちあふれてて、未来に無限の可能性と楽しみしかなくって、
そんな空間がとても羨ましいし、微笑ましいから、キスマイの現場はとても入ってて楽しかったです。
でも、そんなキスマイもきっと凄い長い道のりを乗り越えて、色んな悔しい思いをしてやっとここにたどり着いたに違いないし、凄い努力もして来たに違いない。
だからこそ今の全てを噛み締めて大事に仕事をしてる熱意がとても伝わってきます。
ファンでも無い私が言うのもあれですが、本当におめでとうございます。
多分ファンじゃ無いから、色々と気づかない辛い部分もあるのかも知れないのはまた別の話として。
来週のデビュードームに参加できるのもとても光栄です。

カツンのドームは本当に学校そっちのけで、先生や色んな人に嘘ついてまでほぼ全部参加したのに肝心のデビュードームだけは参加できなかったんだよね。それが未だに悔しくってね。
そんなカツンのデビューの時もいまではいい思い出だけど、色々ありましたね＾＾＾＾
ちょうどファンになったのもその時だし。本当たまたまのタイミングですね。
いや、どうかな...。カツンだから好きになったんだし、あかにしくんだったからこんなに今も好きな部分もある。どっちにしろ、好きになったのがカツンで良かったし。そんでもって、好きになったのがあかにしくんで本当によかった...のかな？w
色々頭抱えたくなる時が多過ぎるけど、じんじんはマジで天使なので。
愛する事がやめられません。（キモイ
いいんですいいんですきもくて。好きなもんはしょうがない！

なんとなく告白したくなったとある雨の降る２ヶ月ぶりのノロケブログ更新。
以上！ちゃお！

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Mon, 22 Aug 2011 01:22:45 +0900

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しゅわしゅわ石鹸の泡みたい

Thu, 30 Jun 2011 08:36:53 +0900

I can't believe that I even let you affect me at all for even a fraction of my life.

I will totally take it as a compliment if you hate me.
I will rather die than have you think of anything more than the worst of me.
Constantly getting on your nerves will only mean I am in the sound state of my mind.

In any case, I'll be more than glad to always be your resident psychopath.
Bring on the best you can.

Kiss my ass.

<3

LAST DAY OF JUNE DDDDDDDDDDD:

Less than 10 more school days till summer holidays＼o／
I don't even want to think about the tests and presentation I have this and next week but this weekend looks amazing and just exactly 7 more days to go!

夏！海！アイスクリーム！

Reading through this list makes me smile.

I will be working on a mega project this whole summer to keep me busy enough but still I can't wait to cross out a few of those on that list.

I've been waiting for NMB48's debut PV forever but it is so H!P quality it's not even funny.
But a good song is a good song nonetheless

FULL PV here.

The ending scene really turns me on for some reason /fetish

珊瑚礁のカレーを食べたら

Sat, 18 Jun 2011 03:57:51 +0900

Listening to Michelle Branch's Hotel Paper album while sipping my iced twinings on a Saturday Morning (currently 4:10AM) is a luxury because officially no Korean class tomorrow. I don't hate the class but going to school on Saturday is unforgivable.

Nothing new from Jin except for the fact that poor thing got soaked in the rain for one of his scenes (which means FUCKYEAHWET!JIN in one of the scenes in the movie?!!?!?!!) which also means sadly~~, within expectation,~~ he fell sick and maybe got a fever which burnt his brains resulting in a series of 140 words maxed out tweets dripping with mushiness. Y U SO CUDDLY. /squishes

(n･ﾟωﾟn)ﾓｷｭｯ♡

Except later we all learnt that he borrowed some wits from some dead pessimistic poet called, Euripides.

"Love makes the time pass. Time makes love pass."
Euripides

OMG. JIN READING... POEMS?

Responses from my TL:
Jin suffering from insomnia?
Did Euripides guest starred in One Piece?

Seriously, the faith people have in Jin reading anything not One Piece brings tears to my eyes.

And then, someone found out there was a play or some show featuring Euripides in London recently.

Oh. So no poem reading Jin. (･◎ω◎)ゞ

Hope your cold gets better yegga.
ちゅっちゅ♡

And then onto the latest commotion that happened this evening.

To be a hundred percent honest, I was more of surprised than happy when I heard that NewS would be singing the theme song for Ryo's new drama next season. I was skeptical about it, but when the photo of the so called PR poster for the drama came by twitter, I was really glad that they will finally release something as a group. Except that happiness was so shortlived. While I snapped my phone shut and moved from my train number 2 to 3 (I take 4 different trains to make it to school now, but more on this later) someone already posted

【悲しい】ポスター画像元は２ちゃんです。【お知らせ】

1. Photo source: 2ch.

Already I know better.
Except I must say that's helluva convincing.

「フジテレビの視聴者センターに問い合わせてみたところ、まだポスターはどこにも貼られていないそうです。主題歌もまだ公にされていないということでした。」

2. Then another tweet came by saying someone called up the television station, and apparently, they haven't even started putting up any posters around in public yet.

Oh.

And then,

「いままでたくさんのジャニが月9出てるけどジャニが主題歌歌ったのって、1998年中居くんブラザーズ、2010年松潤夏恋、2011年慎吾くん幸せになろうよ、だけですお(⌒▽⌒)」

3. Of the 29874682364824792 Johnnys acting in 月9, to date only 3 times the theme songs were sung by Johnnys.

(Not the main theme song but KAT-TUN sang YOU for サプリ's opening so does that make them special? :DD /sparkles)

Well, well, all in all we don't know for sure yet. Maybe, who knows, maybe it can still happen.
I had such an amazing time at NewS's concert last year, I've been dying to attend another one this year, but chances of it happening at all seems so bleak. Mainly because, well, Ryo is so busy with his other commitments, and mainly Eito.

His drama will take him all summer, then the preparation for 24hour TV which will be doubly hard to host this year with the whole earthquake matter, and Arashi's concert at Osaka Dome on 3rd and 4th January practically gave away that chances are Eito will be having a winter concert, so rehearsing for Eito's winter concert, preparing for Eito's possible album... in short, chances of NewS having a concert at all this year is as close as to Jin reading a book that is not One Piece. And in other words, if Eito wasn't this busy, NewS would probably be touring this year or at least be done with their first release for 2011. (I'm leaving Pi's solo expenditures and tour schedules being compromised because of the earthquakes and electricity cutdown out because things would get a lot more messier)

It kind of made me think about Jin and KAT-TUN too. I know it is very different, a lot of situations are very very different and comparing these is worthy of a death sentence but BUT, this is my blog meaning it's like an all for free zone and logic is invalid so let me just rant.

It's like this was probably the reason why Jin left. He said he didn't want his solo works to compromise the group's movement and all. With WHITE being KAT-TUN's 15th single, it dawned upon me that already, that made 5 out of 15's KAT-TUN's single being released without Jin. Statistics are sometimes so cruel and thinking about those made me really sentimental recently. I thought it'll take years and years, a very long time to make Jin being part of KAT-TUN a thing of the past, but at the rate KAT-TUN's been releasing, in just another 5 more singles, that'll make half of KAT-TUN's entire discography to be completely unrelated to Jin. I know it is inevitable and it'll come eventually but still. STILL. YES I CANNOT GET OVER IT.

There. I said it.

I know of people who are really having a hard time because they don't enjoy anything Jin's being doing as a soloist, and they truly wish for nothing except for him to be back in KAT-TUN. Yet I'm obviously enjoying supporting him as a soloist and at the same time, I'm wanting him back and I know it's unfair for me to be all emo and flail about his twitter failness at the same time but knowing what's right and wrong logically and feeling something that you cannot control is just well, you just simply cannot control.

But all that I can say is, even though NewS is not releasing anything at the moment, for as long as they don't officially announce anything, there is still more chances of them working as a group than of anyone leaving or disbanding. And I'm really jealous of that. Even despite having to endure waiting for so long, you can still hope for a group release. And coming from supporting a group that never made through that wait, I'll say I'm sure any long wait, no matter how long it takes, if it doesn't mean removing anyone, it'll be worth it. I'm not blaming anyone but it doesn't stop me from wishing that things could have worked out better than the way they are now. As they always say, grass is always greener on the other side. But for Johnnys, I really cannot think of a single group that I can support without dealing with some shit that seems to be attached to it. Buy one get one free. Free gift that you cannot reject. Maybe that explains why I've been diverting a lot of my attention to AKB48 recently. (More happy fluffy fangirling in another post when I feel up to it)

I'll never forget the line someone told me upon seeing the stage when we attended NewS's concert last year,

もう、６人ってだけで羨ましい。
I'm envious just for the very fact that they are six.

(Your argument that NewS is 7/8/9 is invalid☆)

ばーーーーーん♡

そして君はたまに可愛いウソをつく

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 03:43:31 +0900

Goodbye May, hello June.

10 things happening in my life now that deserves a mention on my blog.

1.

Self explanatory. (Read: Cutest latest picture of Jin since Yellow Gold 3011. duh.)

2. I just chewed off all my nails which I've been growing for weeks. Now they are all jagged and short and hideous. FML.

3. Latest music addiction. Tried all their other tracks but I haven't found another one that is as addictive as this one.

4. Finished all existing episodes of Gossip Girl. Chair4ever.

I realized why I really really like Chuck and Blair is because they are the ONLY ones who is constant in the drama. They don't OMGILUSOMUCH! and then go hook up with someone else 3 episodes later. They lasted 4 seasons. I still like Serena too though the only person I approve of her being with is Blair. Not romantically. Though I won't disapprove of that either.

5. My AKB affection is rekindled (which you would have guessed easily from my previous posts)
Watched K4th at the movie theater last week, K6th yesterday and watching A4th LIVE at TDC Hall tomorrow. My first AKB concert in a century or so. And A4th. Finally.

My AKB48 ranking for now looks something like this:

1 Akimoto Sayaka
2 Kitahara Rie
3 Yokoyama Yui
4 Matsui Sakiko
5 Miyazawa Sae
6 Kasai Tomomi
7 Oshima Yuko

ゆいはん♡
Don't tell me she is overrated because I will punch you in your face. She don't have a 事務所 to back her up yet and already Akimoto finds her worthy enough to push her in everyone's faces, and girl worked her way up Takamina and Mariko-sama's good books. Girl deserves the spotlight she is getting now. And I hope she stays this way. Gave her my vote. <3

6. 1st SNSD show this Saturday ＼o／ The previous Showcase I went to last summer don't count as a full length concert. MR TAXI TAXI TAXI TAXI!!!!!!

7. My mum is here btw. FML.

8. Speaking of which,

I AM FINALLY MOVING.
I AM FINALLY MOVING.
I AM FINALLY MOVING.
I AM FINALLY MOVING.
I AM FINALLY MOVING.

This Sunday.

＼(･ﾟ∀ﾟ)／

Fuckyeahnewtoilet.
I'll no longer be in Tokyo though.
Moving to Saitama and school's in Yokohama.
So I'll have to cross a whole state to get to school from next week onwards. Lol. Not funneh.

9. The one thing highest on my to-by list.

Coolest invention ever since the Moffle (mocchi waffle) maker, no?

10. Favorite picture of the year. Most LOLworthy picture of 2011.

Credits

God why do I only blog in the most outrageous times of the dawn.
You know it is a sign that you've gotten used to college when you've grasp which classes you can miss and which you can't.
Ignoring that I have a class at 9 tomorrow morning.

Bye.

ちょっちょちょっちょちょっちょ

Sat, 28 May 2011 19:36:44 +0900

Funniest AKB shit since the host version of Iiwake Maybe posted below

Hitler is an AKB wota.

alternate version

Pure genius.
This shit is so relevant.

愛しくて切なくてどうにもできなくて

Sun, 22 May 2011 02:21:54 +0900

What happens when a group of hosts (or ah bengs) re-enact Iiwake Maybe's PV.

I assure you this is worth your time.

In comparison, the original:

愛しているから

Thu, 19 May 2011 03:34:37 +0900

The previous single was one of the worst in it's entire discography but I'm glad things looks better for this one. Not literally since their wardrobe catastrophe is causing major casualties on my timeline. HEYx3 bags the prize for being the most atrocious. Kouki's pants needs to be combusted as with Kame's trainers on MJ. But I am liking White and Perfect so far. Like yes, but single songs? It would have been great as an album filler but it is so... generic. KAT-TUN you can do so much better. Not that you've proven that in a long time in picking the right single A-side.

I hate how every time I write about KAT-TUN now I have to backspace a complaint and try to buffer it with something nice. (which explains why I haven't been writing about them in a long time) They are great and I still love them, no buts. I know that they are trying really hard to work things out, struggling, and with that some priorities gets mixed up. Yes, the importance of getting ties up blah blah and I do appreciate the exposure they get, but way too many hits and misses recently.

I've been thinking over something I heard from someone a couple weeks ago and for the longest time, I've been clinging on to the hope that KAT-TUN will be six again, but after hearing what I did, I know better than to hope and that it is far too cruel to ever do so I've resigned to fate and knowing now that this, this will be the KAT-TUN I'll have from here on is making me wish harder for better things. Things with Going the excuse for a tour that happened last year, I could let go because things were uncertain and everything was a mess, but from here on when I know that this is it, I'm don't want to sit around thinking this is just a phase that will past and Jin will come back and things will be alright again. I want them to kickass without Jin. Like when someone said "omg with Joker's rap, it makes this song so-KAT-TUN <3", another person replied that "if it takes a certain something to be the identity of a group than we don't need that identity". And that came from a Kouki fangirl. I agree that whatever makes up the identity of the group should not be up to someone. So being 5 does not make KAT-TUN any less KAT-TUN than when they were 6 if they could make me feel like how I did when they were.

Still waiting for that to happen. I know it is there, because you still have tracks that says so.
Make me want to buy your single again.

Btw just watched the making of for UW last weekend and it scarred me (and my friend) so badly it will take us a long long time before we can watch another one again. We couldn't even finish it. Seriously, just one set with no costume changes and your making of is 47 minutes and with that full elaborate multiple set in SIGNAL the making of was shorter? Talk about quantity over quality. Learn, Warner Brothers. (Okay, not really. I don't think I can deal with watching Jin talking to himself for 40 minutes. But next single, slightly longer than 3 minutes, please?)

For now I'm glad I'll be buying the cheaper copies with better music.

/rants

I've been wanting to rant for a really long time since I heard those stuff, and since talking about the actual content of what I heard is not a choice, I have to talk in the language of cryptograph and come off sounding like a bitch or a lunatic with the corny "oh i know something but I cannot talk about it *bats eyelids*" (okay, I am that lunatic now) I don't even know if what I heard was true, but it is from a really reliable source and it crushed me. Not exactly since there were good and bad sides to it but I can only hope for the best to turn out eventually in the end. But until that best case scenario comes about, it seems that the bleak days goes on for a long long while more.

I miss Jin in so many ways.

My inspiration has run dry

Mon, 09 May 2011 04:00:33 +0900

Insomnia sucks.
More like screwed up body clock since I jolly well know that sleeping at 5AM the night before and waking up at 3PM is responsible for me being wide awake now.
Haven't been blogging since I have nothing exciting going on in my life that I haven't already spazzed over on Twitter.

Plus on top of everything I am spending most of my time watching Gossip Girl in the past few days after repeating Jin's DVD for the just about three thousand times.

I have no idea how I can keep watching despite hating like EVERYONE in the show.

The only people I love are like,

Yah, basically just Blair and Serena. (mentioned in order of preference)
They are so cute together. And pretty. Very.
But I just ended Season 2, so I do like Chuck at the moment, and Jesus-loving Georgina as well.
Otherwise, I spend the rest of the show hating on everyone else.
Little J and her father/brother and Vanessa are highest on my hate list. Wonder if it's a coincidence they all happen to be the Brooklyn people.

Oh and my only other favorite person in the show:

Her ringtone is I'm a slave 4 U by Britney. What's not to love.
Talk about appropriate.

I can't believe Golden Week just ended ):
I only had 3 days off but it was a well spent 3 days I guess. Extremely satisfactory grocery shopping resulting in a very full fridge with a carton of Campbell Mushroom soup in the back of my kitchen, great meals sponsored by my dad, a visit to the national park where tulips and nemophila were on full bloom.

いくら＆牛タン one day after another♡

The park picspam.
Relevant because I seldom have decent pictures that are not of food or idol or origin: tumblr.

Still pissed the random guy there damn dingdeh. Spoil my heart picture. Tsk.

I should really try to sleep because I have to wake up in ~~four~~ three hours time for my SCIENCE compulsory elective (oxymoron, ikr) on Poison studies.
Already missed the last two classes, I'll be poisoned to death if I missed tomorrow's class.

Tata.

じんじんきゃわゆいきゅんきゅん♡